Entrapped

Even If They Say " It's Gonna Be Alright"
Still They Can Hear Me Say,
That i Want To End My Life...
i Guess Noone Has Much To Worry About It,
For, If i Really Wanted To KiLL Meself,
i Would've Done It Already...
This Is Just Nothing, But Talk & Talk...
i Guess That Is True Though..
Cuz i Got This One Reason,
That i Can't Leave
As It Demands For My Payback One-day...
But Still;
Now & Again i Try Just to Stay Alive,
Cuz The Thought
That The Life i Had Once
Won't Be Mine Ever Again
Is Eating Me Alive,
And It Is Waging A War Inside My Head
&
It Keeps Pulling,
My Mind Towards This,
Pit Of Dark Thoughts...
Where It Makes Me Wanna
Fuck MySelf Up For Good!!!

In Love With The Thought of Suicide

If I commit suicide,
It will not be to destroy myself
But to put myself back together again.
Suicide will be for me
Only one means of violently reconquering myself,
Of brutally invading my being,
Of anticipating the
Unpredictable approaches
Of my inner soul.
By suicide, I reintroduce my design in nature,
I shall for the first time
Give things the shape of my will!!!

-Antonin