i'm not ready for anything remotely real in my life

!And yeah, i'm 31 and it's so fucked and i really don't have time

🥺Yet, i am still not ready

Why do i get so Anxious, Afraid and Depressed

Whenever Someone Is Being Kind To Me

 🥺

Why tf do i feel like i'm gonna fucked it up in the next minute

Or

!!!! That i don't deserve to be treated in that way

You've Screwed Up in Your Life So Many Times,

You Think You Don't Have The Right to Be Upset With Anybody 🥺😣

 🥺🤮i've really gotta stop this bad emotional inertia man

My brain is so full of assholes!

It's got the judge, the jury and the attorney,

And it's got the critic,

It's got that guy in the back of the room who says "fuck u loser, u should die!!!"

The guy who says "Eat more Sugar!", even if  you are diabetic

&

To "Eat more bread motherFucker!", even if you've had dinner!!!

Its got every fucker except the one who asks you to love your fucking life!!!

I just have to fuck them up for good, man!

Or i'd have to just kill myself; so that they would die too!

,i knowww

!I was drowning

!And you were there trynna pull me out

,It's just that

!You wouldn't let me be fucking miserable man

!I just needed to hit rock bottom and u wouldn't fucking let me

!U just couldn't read the fucking room Bruh

I'm not trynna make u feel bad

,But it's really not fun to be around somebody who says

,"I've been there too

!I know how you feel

!"People have way worse problems than yours

When you know for a fact that

that somebody genuinely hasn't been there

Or

!Have felt what you are feeling right now

!I was fucked up depressed man

Eveytime i remember the times me being happy;

i get fucking pissed!

Because,

Then i see where im at now

&

Then it hits me That,

That time is gone

&

i aint ever getting it back!

;You Realize u ain't gonna be around Forever

One day you will eat Your Last meal

Hug Your parents, sibling or your friend for the Very Fucking Last Time

!U may not know it was the last time though

;So, when you really think about it

You could really make them moments

!!!Memorable & Fill them with Kindness

!That's the Magical Side of it

,Well

...The Fucked Up Side is that

!May be u ALREADY HAVE DONE those things

!For the LAST TIME man

!Maybe these are the Final Moments You get to Live This Life

😅😅😅Who to Tell 'til it's Happened