Serendipity

Through The Soul Soothing Whispers of The Mist Carrying Wind,

My Heart Found a Sanctuary Within My Dreams!

In this Ethereal Garden of Eden, I Found One of Them Missing Pieces of My Soul

&

It Made The World Feel Infinite With Awe!

Among the Silky Velvet, Gentle Petals Scattered around This Oasis

&

Secrets of This Enchanted Haven of a Paradise,

i Captured Memories That Shall Forever Grace the FuckedUp Feelings That Resides Within Me Heart;

Curing The Messed Up Darkest Thoughts in My Mind;

I Looked Back,

Holding Them Golden Minutes So Dearly,

Immersing Deep Within Its Tranquility,

Acknowledging the Fact That The Life's Sweetest Moments are Often Lost in Time;

Wondering How i Could Have Lived the Rest of my Life There,

Hiding From;

All the Drama,

The Endless Pursuit for Happiness,

The Relentless, Soul Crushing, Expectations & Societal Demands

Which Make My Withered Soul Weary;

Even Though It Felt So Liberating,

Me Imagining Being There Drowning in a Realm So Surreal,

My Fucked Up Reality Finally Hit Me Hard Obliterating Me From The Fantasy I Was In,

Yet, for Those few Seconds I Was

Enjoying the Purest Form of Life,

The Innermost Vitality,

The Genuinely Untethered Core of Life

With Nothing But Brimming Peacefulness,

Happiness & Serenity,

Bathing & Soothing My Psyche!

Just Me & The Living-In-The-Moment Vibes,

Which i Was Yearning & Longing All My Life,

Yet It Was Suddenly Vanquished When The Reality Hit Me!

Nevertheless, I Cherished Them Tiny Little Kindling Moments In My Numbered Time Line

Where Eros Conquered Thanatos,

Even for a Couple of Glorious Seconds 🖤💫🖤

#SereneMistyMountains 

#AStrokeofSerendipity

#WhispersofThePast

#HeartsSlingingWithJoy

#déjàVu

Halcyon

360° View එකම හඳ එළියේ කිමිදුන,

කැස්බෑවොත් ඇවිත් යන පාලුම පාලු 

placid මූදු වෙරළක,

Trunk එක ගලවලා පැත්තකට විසි කරලා

මූදට පැනලා පාවි පාවි ඉඳලා

ඒ සීතලට lighthouse එකත් සිරස් වෙලා 

ඇති උනාම ගොඩට පීනගෙන ඇවිත් එතනම තියෙන ගල් තලාවේ

වාඩි වෙලා,

LED Torch එකෙන් Light Saber එකක් හදාගෙන,

ඒකෙන් වලාකුළු දෙබෑ කරන ගමන්,

HyperSpace එකට jumping පාරක් දාන්න තිබ්බා නම් කියලා නිදහසේ හිත හිත ඉද්දි,

අම්මට උඩු!

Jedi Master කෙනෙක්ගේ ඔලුවේ හැම වෙලේම ඇත්තෙත් මේ වගේම tranquil ගතියක් නේද කියලා පොඩි ට්‍රැකක් පැන්නා,

හොඳ වෙලාවට ඒ වෙලේම වලාකුළු අස්සෙන් ආපු හඳ එළියෙන් ආයෙමත් ඒ යුනිවර්ස් එකෙන් එලියට ඇවිත්, අතේ තියෙන්නේ ටෝච් එකක් කියලා මීටර් වෙලා ඒක නිවලා,

හඳ එළිය reflect වෙන huge ass මුහුද දිහා බලාගෙන,

අපි කොච්චර පොඩිද කියලා හිතන ගමන්,

හාන්සි වෙද්දි vertical උන

ක්‍ෂිතිජ රේඛාවට starboard පැත්තෙන් පිරුන වැහි වලාකුළු අස්සෙන්  පේන තරු ගණන් කර කර,

අර ලොකුයි කියලා හිතුන මුහුදටත් වඩා ලොකු අහස දිහා බලාගෙන,

මුහුදු හුළඟටූකාගන්න කියලා,

ගෝල්ඩ්ලීෆ් දුම් අහසට යවන ගමන්, දඩයක්කාරයගෙන් ජීවිතේ බේර ගන්න ට්‍රයි කරන හාවා අඳින්න ට්‍රයි කර කර ඉද්දි,

පොඩියට පටන් ගත්ත මනෝ පාරක අතරමංවෙලා

ඒක too fucking deep යනවා වගේ මීටර් උන නිසා එතනින් නැගිටලා

Hermit Crabsලගෙන් පිරුන වෙරළ තීරුවේ උන්වත් බේර බේර උඩ පැන පැන අඩිය තිය තිය,

එතනින් පස්සේ ඉවරයක් නැති වෙරළ දිගේ ඔහේ ඇවිදගෙන ගිහින්

දන්නෙම නැතුව හිටපු තැනටම ඇවිත් ගියපු,

මුහුදු හුළඟත් එක්ක හැමිණි හැමිණි සැරෙන් සැරේ එන පොද වැස්සට තෙමිලා මුලු ඇඟම chill වෙලා ගිය සිරාම සිරා රෑක,

ජීවිතේ අපි මොනවද මේ පස්ස පැත්ත ඉරාගෙන කරන්නේ,

පොඩි කාලේ පට්ටම සරලව තිබ්බ ජීවිතේ

මේ තරම් Fucked Up Complex ලෙවල් එකකට ආවේ කෝමද කියලා මතක් වෙලා,

"මේ මොන රෙද්දේ හැමිනේෂන් එකක්ද මේ!?" කියලා ඔළුව ගිනි අරගෙන එද්දිම, අත් දෙකෙන්ම ඔලුවත් බදාගෙන බි** හොලව හොලව හයියෙන් දුවගෙන ගිහින් ආයෙමත් මුහුදට පැනලා ඔලුව නිවාගත්ත රැයක්! 😂🖤💫

Me

'Dead, but Not Allowed to Die. Alive, but as good as Dead.'

Life, People & wealth ft GPT

In the intricate tapestry of existence, certain friendships evolve when fortune's favor graces their path.

These friends, once content with the simplicity of life, now find themselves ensnared by the siren song of affluence.

They perceive existence through a gilded lens, where every day gleams with the promise of opulence and grandeur.

Conversations, once filled with the sweet simplicity of joy, now wander through the labyrinthine corridors of

wealth acquisition, financial strategies, the intricacies of child-rearing, and the relentless quest for societal stature.

Not that they are insignificant to keep up with the never ending race of a life time, yet speding the whole life on it, even if they

met up for a relaxing time is an indication of how they have become thirst of the complexicity of life.

In their fervent pursuit of riches, they seek entry into the exclusive echelons of prosperity, displaying their achievements as a coveted ticket.

In their yearning for wealth, they seek connections with the well-to-do, showcasing their own successes as a key to an exclusive club.

They hope that by appearing polished and refined, they can tap into the resources of those higher up the ladder.

The beauty of humble living, once cherished, now stands distant, overshadowed by judgment towards those who remain on the path of modesty.

Yet, amid their aspirations, they overlook the fragile threads that weave the tapestry of life.

Mortality's shadow, the ephemeral nature of existence, all dismissed as fleeting phantoms.

They fail to grasp that beneath the veneer of success, we share a universal vulnerability,

where sickness, misfortune, and the specter of death visit without discrimination.

In their relentless ascent, they forsake the precious treasures of simplicity, the joy of genuine connections,

and the profound beauty found in life's unadorned moments. The art of cherishing life's small wonders escapes them.

Life, a transient wisp, too brief to waste in the race for fleeting social approval, remains elusive.

They remain ensnared by the mirage that wealth holds the key to all of life's mysteries,

blind to the timeless truth that genuine riches reside not in material wealth but in the heart's capacity to love and find joy in the ordinary.

May they awaken one day to the harmonious melody of simplicity, the enduring charm of authentic connections,

and the wisdom that true happiness resides not in opulence but in the unadorned beauty of life's everyday wonders.

For life is too short, too profound, to be consumed by the empty pursuit of appearances and ego.

i'm not ready for anything remotely real in my life

!And yeah, i'm 31 and it's so fucked and i really don't have time

🥺Yet, i am still not ready

Why do i get so Anxious, Afraid and Depressed

Whenever Someone Is Being Kind To Me

 🥺

Why tf do i feel like i'm gonna fucked it up in the next minute

Or

!!!! That i don't deserve to be treated in that way

You've Screwed Up in Your Life So Many Times,

You Think You Don't Have The Right to Be Upset With Anybody 🥺😣

 🥺🤮i've really gotta stop this bad emotional inertia man

My brain is so full of assholes!

It's got the judge, the jury and the attorney,

And it's got the critic,

It's got that guy in the back of the room who says "fuck u loser, u should die!!!"

The guy who says "Eat more Sugar!", even if  you are diabetic

&

To "Eat more bread motherFucker!", even if you've had dinner!!!

Its got every fucker except the one who asks you to love your fucking life!!!

I just have to fuck them up for good, man!

Or i'd have to just kill myself; so that they would die too!

,i knowww

!I was drowning

!And you were there trynna pull me out

,It's just that

!You wouldn't let me be fucking miserable man

!I just needed to hit rock bottom and u wouldn't fucking let me

!U just couldn't read the fucking room Bruh

I'm not trynna make u feel bad

,But it's really not fun to be around somebody who says

,"I've been there too

!I know how you feel

!"People have way worse problems than yours

When you know for a fact that

that somebody genuinely hasn't been there

Or

!Have felt what you are feeling right now

!I was fucked up depressed man

Eveytime i remember the times me being happy;

i get fucking pissed!

Because,

Then i see where im at now

&

Then it hits me That,

That time is gone

&

i aint ever getting it back!