UNPROCURABLE LOVE

She loves me for what i am Yet i don't have the right to love her for who she is... I mean i do love her for everything she is... But god i don't have the fucking right... I loved her since i laid my eyes upon her Fair cheeks where veins were visible... Lips like crimson roses yet way more divine... Tiny finger always sticking out of the rest of her fingers when she grabs something or laughs Specs making her look kinda naughty Decency and the innocent look on her face at the same time God she's still the same... Me being a fugly miserable brat She being a hearty adorable lass She could make me a gentleman by being my gentle angel.. But god why did this has to happen an unprocurable love She'll never be mine She won't shine upon my life She won't lie beside me life She won't lie at my bedside at night neither will she be there in the morning She won't be mine, my life's gonna be a sigh at her sight Every time i see her sight it's jz gonna be another sigh plus a bruised lip that i bite I fist my hand, gasp for breath and grasp for my life Hang on tight man u'll be fine My mind pretends and acts like fine by burying the fact that it cheats my deep conscience as i fight...

 THOSE DAYS

It was only you and me babe, But it was all okay, cuz u were all I needed
We climbed mountains, Hiked hills
U took my hand, whenever you weren't sure of which path to take, whenever the path was rough and difficult, you leaned on me, you took my hand....
My goodness hon, that grip... thought it was gonna last for the life time...
Your warm sweaty neck and chest , with that drenched kiss curl and that unique frisky smile of yours... 
God u were leaving me breathless darlingl!!! I cudnt believe that U were mine!!!
That beach we sat down together looking at the horizon,gazing at the endless infinity... reminding ourselves of what it's our life gonna be together!!!
One foot on the sand the other one intertwined with ur leg...
We were talking the simplest things in our lives and the deepest serious shit without sweating a bit... 
Like they too were so simple things in our lives!!!
That's the thing babe, we could do that! 
We could talk even the deepest darkest secrets we held only into our individual souls for the entire life,
The saddest darkest drastic moments of our lives...
The things we only held into ourselves, 
The things we didn't slip out no matter what, 
The things we only speak loud inside our heads, 
The things we only talked with that li'l voice which echoes inside our heads... 
We could tell them with each other, looking straight right at our eyes fearlessly, shamelessly, 
without giving it a second thought, 
without stressing out or being afraid of being judged by the other...

Once a bright sunny sandy beach that was... 
Now a gloomy heavy dark extraterrestrial place which holds the memories of a bright sun and an inmost adorable couple...
Who were sipping a daiquiri and a virgin daiquiri looking at the horizon with the lightest but the happiest hearts a living being could ever possess...
they thought of their problems were all under rocks...
They both were sharing this mutual feeling which was a combination of happiness, love, lust and this relaxing feeling 
while clinging into each other while filling their glasses again and again!
When I look back on those days, 
And now that all those beautiful moments are gone & those moments are nothing but everliving memories... 
There is not a single thing that I would change... 
Cuz man, they were the perfect happiest moments a man could ever get in his life time! 
It's sad that some men die without even realizing that a man could be that much happy and proud!!!
Well i've been lucky!!! 
I lived my life so full of joy back then, and i loved it! 
Well i guess, what they say is true... Life is nothing but a dream hon!!! 
And now it sucks.... Again, 
Just like what it used to be before, 
Before u came into my miserable, boring, monotonous life!!! 
You changed that, You taught me how to love my life, how much my life worth, not only to me, but to some other people too!!! 
Yes babe u taught me that!!! 
But what u never taught me was, how much cheaper or how worthless it could get without your presence in it... 
How to keep going on without you by my side...

‪#‎College_Students...,

When they have no options left but to stay away from their home-place...
When the ‪#‎Academic_Stress rises up above their zenith...
When the academic staff puts so much pressure and keep pressing on'em so hard without any mercy on their ‪#‎Young_Souls ...
There comes a breaking point in each and every young soul...
So These young men tend to do ‪#‎Things ...
#Things that they get ‪#‎addicted to!!!
Sports, Clubs & Societies, Designing Things, Making Robots or Quad-copters, playing COD from dusk 'till dawn until their laptops get overheated and even after that, Taking Night Strolls with friends, Going out to dine with friends, Trynna find The ‪#‎perfect_soul_mate, or just ‪#‎Hitchhiking ‪#‎till_the_graduation or at least trynna find a seat next to a girl before a long and boring lecture ... , ‪#‎Midnight phone calls that last till dawn..., Having Li'l picnics and evening strolls in #‎LoversLane‬... , having  ‪#‎Beer with good friends, having a drink with buddies... And most infamous method in ‪#‎College_Life...
Hanging out and have puffs of fags and other ‪#‎Green_Stuff with amigos...
So they do these #Things !!! For the inner Peace of their souls!
Well; hell !!!
Some of'em aint proud of saying out loud!!!
But still no one can judge'em or criticize'em for doing any of'em... Unless they are gonna OD themselves by over doing bad shit!!!










When they have no options left but to stay away from their homeplace...When the ‪#‎Academic_Stress‬ rises up above their zeniths...When the aca staff put pressure and keep pressing on'em so hard without any mercy on their ‪#‎Young_Souls‬ ... There comes a breaking point in every young soul...So These young men tend to do ‪#‎Things‬ ...#Things that they get ‪#‎addicted‬ to!!!Sports, Clubs & Societies, Designing Things, Making Robots or Quadcopters, playnig COD til laptops get overheated and even after that, Taking Night Strolls with friends, Going out to dine with friends,Trynna find The ‪#‎perfect_soul_mate‬, or jz ‪#‎HitchHiking‬ ‪#‎til_the_graduation‬ or atleast trynna find a seat next to a girl before lectures ... , ‪#‎Midnight‬ phone calls that last till dawn..., Having Li'l picnics and evening strolls in‪#‎LoversLane‬... , having a ‪#‎Beer‬ with good friends, having a drink with buddies... And most infamous method in ‪#‎College‬ life... Hanging out and have puffs of fags and other ‪#‎Green_Stuff‬ with amigos...So they do those #Things !!!Well; hell !!! Some of'em aint proud of saying out loud!!!But still noone can judge'em or critizice'em for doing any of'em... Unless they are gonna OD themselves by over doing bad shit 😉

From Bhaanu to iP,

To IP...

Man,
I miss you so much !!!!
I miss discussing all those crazy things and deep shit !!!
How we change topics yet we both are interested in equally ..
How we love to share our thoughts and listen to the other one..
How we discuss about the people we love , I know we both went through some extraordinary love stories but never regret..
And how we don't judge the other one ..
Both still trying to figure out what life is, and think like we should die young cause lot of people just judge us but don't try to understand!!
May be we don't have to understand what life is,but keep moving forward and always expect the unexpected!!!
we don't meet often ,may be just like once or twice a year but still we know each other !!!!
People may tell lighting a cigarette and have a beer is a too bad thing to do, but i swear i love to have some beer with a cigarette and talking to you ,cause that makes more sense than be surrounded by fake people who don't give a shit about others !!!
Anyway keep in mind ,there is always hope...
I'm so glad to be your friend !!!



-extracted from FaceBook-

A Reply From iP to Bhaanu...

Bhaanu...

I miss those good ol' days too brother,
The small concrete bridge, which lies across our canteen and math section, plus the corridor,
Our usual place where we used to share all those stories, talk about nothing plus everything...
Books, Music, Girls, Love, Movies, People, Life...
Miss'em too damn much Dudy!!!
It's true we don't meet-up that much often like we used to,
But the fact that we are best buddies... it will remain forever and ever brother!!!
It's true that the frequency of those moments a li'l bit above nil,
But we still meet up once in a while through the year buddy,
& yea, to hell with those hypocrites plus ignoramus shitheads,
A best feeling, a best moment of my life is centered 'round a Beer, a cigarette plus a Great Amigo to talk!!!
No matter how weird, stupid, how crazy, how dark or freaking meaningless the story.. we still DO hear each other out man...
No judgments, zero awkwardness but understandings plus funny and serious advises!!!
I think that's the very definition for the word "Friendship" dude!!!
No-matter how long we stay apart, how far we stay apart, no matter what or who we'll become,
We still KIT with each other....
I silently thank our Alma Mater for giving me a friend like you bro!!!!
You are A Brother from another Mother to me man!!! But our Alma Mater is our is our Mother... Hence the the same blood and actual brothers we are!!!
So kit brother!!! Love u so damn much!!!smile emoticon

P.S.
I dunno about that buds...
HOPE... That's what iv been missing since i got my leaving certificate from school...
This life ain't the life i expected at all!!!

P.P.S.

Anyways, with friends like You

I hope, there's still hope man!!!!

-extracted from FaceBook-

G

Love is Love

Just fuck this society - It DOES increase my anxiety!

Yeah, the traditions - Plus the regulations

Which reign all over the globe

Shit, they are disgusting - plus discriminating

Yeah, they’re badly infecting – plus affecting

Overwhelming – plus cruelly effecting upon the deed of LOVE!

The barrier between the ages – makes me wanna take the rages

The Discrimination based on the races makes me dump my faeces on their faces
And spit on their graces

I jz wanna erase the memory traces of race based discriminations
And embrace all the races without hesitation with zero racism

The wall between castes makes my heart blast and I grasp into my life without letting out my last gasp thinking how primitive creatures we still are!!!

“My God is better Than Yours…” Hence comes the discrimination of religion as we ain’t got a smidgen of a complete human brain!!!

Gay marriages…
God, Someone’s bae’s being a same sex person…
That doesn't make'em criminals and it ain’t a fucking crime but LOVE!!!
Who are we to judge’em except for learn a lesson of true love from'em…
Learn the fact that love knows no boundary but the fact that it’s universal….

Fuck this society;
There ain’t no God nor an Almighty to judge anyone here!!! 

It’s just a dynasty of hypocrisy with crazy arsed lunacy without any sanity!!!

I mean this is a dreadful tragedy – it’s just the damnity

This makes the whole world go misty   plus  hazy !!!!!!!

…ioR

My eyes are drier
Ain’t even got a tear
Plus you set my heart on fire
I know you ain’t nor a liar
But the memories of the time we spent together
Always come into my mind and they do stir
My mind, so it’s too on fire
You always take me to the higher
Where you sing on the stage & um sitting on the top of the tier
Please do hire; me foreva as your lifetime partner,
I promise, I won’t charge you a penny, please do hurry up cuz my heart’s in dire
If your love’s on an auction, I’ll be the highest bidder plus foremost buyer
My life’s like a flattened tire
Filled with nothing, no air
I hate of being a vain Trier
Gal, you’ve become my soul’s prior
Just lemme be your Sire
Just run into my arms and be my one and only supplier
To this neva-eva-ending plus, craving but innocent desire
So just come & do sing to my ear
Just stay ‘round both my sides, forth plus rear
Do whisper to my ear
That you do woo me, my dear
So I can hear
Plus make sure that you are right here!!!

 CrAzY MorNiNgS

Every single freaking morning,
I wake up by my own self with mourning
Without her on my bed by my side it’s so boring
So um yawning plus groaning!!!
She keeps me ignoring
She’ll never sleep beside me, oh god this feels so crazy!!
Sometimes um just wondering
Maybe, she’s thinking the same thing
WTF am I thinking
She’ll neva eva think of me
If she does, she must be crazy
Oh god why is this happening!?
To think like this, I must be the one who’s crazy!
Oh My Gosh!! I do think like this daily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn!!!

Abduction Of My Imagination

 

Screw this Temptation
It stirs my Sensation
Increases my Tension
It’s just keep pushing me towards Depression
I Guess, always the Damnation
Reigns ‘round this Situation
The propagation of the days
Since you came to our section
Made me Impatient
Increased my Inspiration
Decreased my Patience
Made me an addict
Yes I've got an Addiction upon your Attraction
Made me see Illusions plus Delusions
But I swear, this ain’t an Obsession
Yeah ad finem you made me a Patient without any Patience
it’s like a freaking Infection
Feels like I’ve got Detention
I always tried to get your freaking Attention upon my Damnation
Cus it was neva Enough
Yes it was always Insufficient
To see that Radiation plus Illumination of your Divine sight
I was always trynna make an Appreciation
Of your beauty plus crimson lips,
Yes they seemed like Goddess Venus’s Creations
But alas! At last you made me lost with no Direction
I did many mumfreaking Sacrifications plus Dedications
I let my personality sink in Humiliation
But I didn’t get a nice Reaction
You neither showed me a good Impression
Nor an Impression of Prevention
Plus nor an Expression of Depression of my Present
You made me keep away from M _ _ _ _ _ _ ation
I Do Woo thee my li’l Angel
You’re so Passion-ate plus Fashion-ate
Yeah ain’t got an Expression to express the beauty of you, my pretty li’l Damnation
E’ery second of your Absentia gives me Nausea
Now um stuck in the middle of this Confusion
It is freaking confusing plus consuming my restless plus relentless mind
Yeah the Complication of this complicating enigma makes me Anxious and makes me suffer from kinda Irritation
Now I ain’t got a Solution
Cus my Imagination is way beyond the Limitations of the Traditions of old freaking Generation
It’s just the Discrimination between the gaps of our Ages
The Realization i.e. you ain’t my Possession
Makes it feel like the Gravitation ‘round me moves towards  Expansion
Oh gosh!
The Consumption of my mind makes me commit self Penetration
And causes me suffer from Suffocation, Asphyxiation plus Humiliation
I do not know where will be my mumfreaking Destination;
But I do know that it won’t be a Distinction
But still you’re a grand Creation of Goddess Venus my angel!!!!!!!!!!!!

 ✒️  iP
During GCE ALs General English Examination (Aug 2011)